I think my housemates are coming to hate me, they never seen to want to talk to me or spend time with me and always make plans with each other without including me. They don't seem to be interested in me or my life at all. They make decisions about the house without me and then just expect me to pay for things they buy for the house. One of them is a very good friend of ten years, and I think living with me has made him dislike me.

I've been spending a lot of time in my room alone lately because they seem to not want to talk to or see me. And I don't really want to see people who don't want to see me.

The purple is just as pretty as I hoped Its a little glittery too, feels amazing.

Did my nails and blindly mixed a black with an iridescent top coat called “unicorn.” Ended up with kind of acid green/night sky color. Quite delightful and unexpected.

thinking about that home made pesto pasta I had the otther day again. damn that shit was so good. fresh basil just has such a smell and absolute powerful verdant look to it in pesto

Got some dark purple nail polish today, really looking forward to it. I've been wanting purple for a while now

not going out tonight, too busy singing a meatball marinara song to my dog

Thinking about the time I texted my sister "okay but what if I was trans" one evening, and then the next morning followed it up with a good 'ol "lol nvm."

And now here we are like a year later.

Put on my old grey sweatpants (only a few years old tbh) and

Can't really wear my old clothes anymore IG. estrogen is magic fr

Not trans related but I want few things more than to neuralyze math knowledge from the general populace so we can break this cycle of math being taught and retaught in the stupid ass way it's currently being done.

Noooooooo, it's cold war time in history class again. I'm already hearing about soviets trying to conquer the world, and the war happening between "democratic capitalism" vs "authoritarian communism". I ALREADY DID THIS BIT LAST SEMESTER, PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME DO IT AGAIN

I remember one time I went out in public with eyeliner and painted nails this old white woman came up to me and said as sweetly as possible "Jesus loves you" before walking away. Chat what does this mean

I still miss sharing a bed with someone else 😭

Not even for sex or for cuddles, just the light snoring and warmth is what I miss the most

I just scheduled my first hair appointment under my girl name and she/her pronouns.

I've always hated getting my haircut, so I'm more than a little anxious about going. The salon is queer friendly, but it still took like an hour to work up the courage to schedule it. They even ask for pronouns in the booking interface.

Thank you for your call, we are experiencing higher than normal call volumes...

I don't think I've called a big company since like 2009 where they weren't experiencing "higher than normal call volumes." On the one hand, it makes sense that I'd be calling during their busy times I guess. But every time?

I remember being pretty good at linear algebra once, calculus never really stuck though. I vaguely remember it all like a dream but maybe if I could get some materials I've no real use for it but prob beats being a gamer

cost for me and my partner to get the train to the town nearby: £18

cost for me and my partner to drive, then park for six hours (inc. fuel): £11

I think I can manage bottom dysphoria if I can find a way to never have spontaneous erections again 🤔

sigh

if i want a GF i have to download shudders the apps, don't I?

yeah :(

car is fixed for reals this time

Me when I feel less anxious/more certain about HRT when people treat it positively instead of like I'm poisoning myself

Starting as soon as the pharmacy ships to me. Feel a little bad not telling my mom about it but if she wanted to be in the loop maybe she shouldn't have reacted so drastically¯⁠\⁠(⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)⁠/⁠¯ plus my family doesn't tell me things all the time so not like they're some shining example

Homosexual Desire in Revolutionary Russia

Well... if I were to ever do one of those "self publish e-book slop on Amazon" things... I've got a title for the series.

My girl shorts arrived and I’m in love with the way I look in them 🥹 but I might have to get tucking panties or some shit like that if I ever want to wear them outside my bedroom 🥲 I was worried medium might be too small but it’s just right and maybe even a little loose lol

My cat is being chaotic again, running around, trying to stop me from getting work done. She's restless, but she finally settled down and is watching me type this. Unfortunately for her, I have to get up now. Sorry, Lenore

I actually scheduled a consult with a voice coach. It's been like, idk a year now and I have made no progress with my voice so hoping that a voice coach can help me. Only problem is that I'm not out at work so I will not be able to go full time with my voice :(

I'm really proud of myself for wearing a skirt in public all day yesterday, I felt quite cute. it probably helped that my partner was there, but tbh I realized I could have done it without her too

with how much I struggle to feel qualified for feminity with my body the way it currently is, this was a really good step. it'll definitely make the wait till surgery easier if I feel a bit better too :p

Boys cute.

Dreamt I got turned into a snail but I wasn't like the rest of y'all I was and doing what I could to evade capture. My spirit was still strong I was a badass mollusk