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This is wonderful, though I feel like "I don't feel super comfortable in my body" as a pre-cursor to nonbinary identity is a narrow view. I didn't experience much gender dysphoria before transitioning, but I experience a hell of a lot of gender euphoria when exploring my nb side.
It must have been so much more difficult to engage in relationships like this back then. It truly was revolutionary, to go up against everyone in your life and society to follow your heart.
I'm navigating this with my partners right now.
I've decided to go barrier-free with my two partners, and use condoms with everyone else.
We are a pretty incestuous polycule and mostly use barriers with those outside the friend group, and we're all tested frequently. ~3 months.
Me and one of my partners also take daily doses of PrEP, which nearly eliminates the risk of contracting hiv. I'm also fully vaccinated, so the only thing I could potentially get that can't be eliminated with drugs is herpes, but that is very treatable.
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Like Indomora said, it seems like you and your partner want different things.
If you don't want to break up, I would suggest telling your partner how important this is to you.
She says that she'd be more open to it when you're both more secure. Okay, then try finding pre-defined times in the future that you both can agree on to discuss this further. That will make this less of a fantasy, and more measurable.
Good luck
Love this post! You have such a fun playful style of writing and it's a style that I never see on like, reddit for instance. Emojis are really looked down on there and language is expected to be pretty standardized. I love how much fun u have w it :3
Thanks for sharing your story! :) My partner was binary trans for years before they came out as nonbinary, which far more matches their identity.
I myself thought that binary trans was the only option when I was in high school so I pushed that egg deep down down down until my early 30s when it cracked open. When I first was thinking about transitioning, the idea of fully going fem just didn't feel right for me. I feel so grateful to live in a s o c i e t y where it's more welcomed than in the past.