Final Fantasy XI
Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!
During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.
Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.
He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.
However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”
After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!
I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!
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trauma/dissociation/transphobia
Mine is often a response to just how unpleasant facets of life are, and I think just how I adapted to it as a young one was that if I could not physically escape something, I block it out retroactively.Like when I lost that item, I was having a lot of transmisogynistic experiences in a row over the last few days and had to get something for a friend’s gathering, so I just largely blocked out the experience, and nearly lost an item in the process.
It’s really unpleasant, but it makes sense why I would do that. As an autistic person, it often feels like my ‘body mind’ and my ‘conscious mind’ work on mostly parallel tracks, where sometimes they do not align, if that makes sense?
trauma/dissociation
I think mine was to escape my reality but now it is automatic it is so engrained. I have noticed some flare up recently but I am unaware of a trigger and I know I also have issues with my monotropism being so strong theres a bit of overlap. I have been having small auto pilot moments recently and put that down to forgetfulness forgetting about dissociation completely but I was thinking through all the recent things hence my earlier post and I feel shaken with that realisation.makes perfect sense to me c:
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The monotropism connection is so insightful and fucks hard. ^^ hope things get better soon. It tends to come and go in waves for me. Folks also help me remember things, but I worry about it a lot. :/
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Yeah I was mixing it up with that, I thought I was done with the big long periods of it, bit of a shock realising that I'm still doing it. I worry about it a lot too :/