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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!

Do you love transgenders?

Do you love communism?

Do you love queer romance?

Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?

Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?

Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?

All of the answers should be: YES I DO ~~or else I WILL BAN YOU~~

Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY

The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists pigmask-off , Zionists hamas-base (they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The 'Anarchists' (social chauvanists) lenin-dont-laugh in Bosporus, and the monarchs gui-trans of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.

On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union soviet-chad is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain left-unity-4 )that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human bridget-disco , Shimmi kbity-how (Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran transshork-happy (a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.

First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist three-heads-thinking leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home chad-stalin , but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. specter

As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack...

And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.

Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands

All are Communists steban

All serve the Union USSR

All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism comrade-stoic

but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt

Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?

Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)

FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/

please do or else I will pout incessantly

just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK

(I miss her, she was a real one)

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[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

no clog

I know right, not every thinkpad has them, my R51 died to grape juice. But most 15" and 14" ones do and it saves em often...

damn, grape juice. that's rough. i once had a pet rat pee on my laptop, it uh slowly degraded after that. i think she wanted attention...

Waow... maybe I will thinkpadpost sometime...

cool!! link me!!

I like to think I could uphold my Ideals in person

wow, as soon as I read this, I realized that's exactly how it feels. IRL I'm pretty meek, i mean, i'm pretty meek online too, only around Safe Partner do I rant about imperialism. to my friends it's all like "well you know maybe we should uh do something about uh ~our economic system~

Idk how to do this in meatspace, online better.

i remember people saying the internet wasn't real to me when i was young. aged like milk tbh. incidentally, i just watched Serial Experiments Lain again, and not only is she literally me fr fr when I was a tiny enby, but I finally understand the core conflict about the Wired (Internet) becoming real, more real that life even. I think it was predictive - I think online might actually be a better place to try and change people's opinions than in person. I'm biased tho, lol

I wonder what weird picks I would throw at someone and expect them not to like, hmmmmm......

this is a real test of your rtstragedy knowledge (ok, there's gotta be a shorter version of my handle)

Idk, you could probably do it and it would probably be cool honestly.

i usually don't get far enough to even making something before i can transform it. i used to be able to write music and stuff, now i just shitpost and read i guess. before the summer i was self-teaching piano since i like making video-game style music (i'm not good at it, in case you were wondering), but Partner took some time off of violin so I have taken a break too. the piano is a rental, lol

Yeah big back and forths like this tend to fold down to less replies naturally, par for the course and not a bad thing. Couldn't talk like this forever lol

totally, i've had this thought in my head like "what are we gonna do when the thread rolls over" lol.

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

spoilerI love that pet rat though, that's sorta funny. Beloved biggs

wow, as soon as I read this, I realized that's exactly how it feels.

Yeah, mostly I only mean socially though. I have fought my dad a little about Palestine, to no avail. But I am woefully socially inept irl, so I can't really talk to people much. The five-senses input pulls my focus from the conversation...

not only is she literally me fr fr when I was a tiny enby,

Oh based as fuck, congrats on becoming fullsized btw. I should watch Lain sometime, it is a classic it seems...

this is a real test of your rtstragedy knowledge

Wife and I have been saying "rts" for short in conversation, lol. I have no idea though, trouble is I believe very firmly in the things I give solid recs to, mostly. I guess people may not like This Is How You Lose The Time War for its fucky chronology and avant-garde tone.

now i just shitpost and read i guess.

Lol same, cool that Safe Partner plays music too though, you both have so many skills and hobbies waowee...

We are gonna POST when the thread rolls over!!!!

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

i dont know how to nest spoiler tags.

frick, i keep doing it

I love that pet rat though, that's sorta funny.

haha yeah i dont have pets now, but i think rodents are cute :3 rats are pretty cool, apparently they communicate above the range of human hearing (obv don't adopt wild rats, they can have diseases apparently)

Yeah, mostly I only mean socially though. I have fought my dad a little about Palestine, to no avail.

oh no, sorry that that didn't work out. i usually fillibuster my parents about communism, i'm an only child, what are they gonna do? talk to their dog? (their dog is very cute and my dad loves her to pieces lol) my mom is Russian/Ukrainian (Ukrainian mom, Russian (dead) dad) so it's been surprising to hear her start agreeing on this stuff as she was very anti-communist prior as her parents fled Russia "for practicing religion" (I don't have the historical knowledge to unpack what that could mean). When I feel safe, I guess I can talk freely, but there's no way I'd be able to talk about this kind of stuff outside my Partner and family. I used to talk very angrily at them ... I've softened a lot. So have they. I cut them off for nearly an entire decade when I transitioned. I still refuse to talk to the extended family.

But I am woefully socially inept irl, so I can't really talk to people much. The five-senses input pulls my focus from the conversation...

i hear you, i struggle with trying to maintain cisheteroneuronormativity as well as distractions and sensory issues in public spaces, so i mostly just mask and do small talk, or talk about something safe like tech. unfortunately, masking for me also means political-normativity, so at best i'm doing some weak-kneed suggestions about Parenti, or talking about UBI lol.

Oh based as fuck, congrats on becoming fullsized btw. I should watch Lain sometime, it is a classic it seems...

First time I watched, I thought it was edgy for edgy's sake, and maybe that's a bit true (starts with a suicide, but I think it's meant to be read as metaphorical). It avoids a lot of anime tropes, but ... shit, ok, here we go...

spoiler spoilers for Serial Experiments Lain, but mostly aesthetic spoilers so I really like Lain as a character.

  • I like her outfits - I read the one especially in the intro as her being simultaneously dressed too young and too old for her age, and I really really relate to that, as someone who literally can't understand age at all, or fashion, etc.
  • I like her quiet demeanor - when I was young, I used to be that stereotype. I didn't talk to basically anyone at school, and at recess I would just walk around the edge of the playground, lost in my own fantasies. I now know this is an autism thing, lol.
  • She is computers. Her room slowly fills up with more and more gear and becomes absolutely abnormal as the series progresses and this is actually how my relationship to technology feels. I uh, may have a server rack in my garage (okay BUT there's only one server in it right now...i got rid of the other two...)

I also really like her friend Alice, who is the best friend I wished I had when I was in school. I read her as trying to include Lain in things, even though her friends were a bit apprehensive, and genuinely caring. Damn, she's great. :::

Wife and I have been saying "rts" for short in conversation, lol.

uhh I still call you Tactics Ogre Enjoyer to Safe Partner, I hope that's ok... it takes me a very long time to be able to refer to someone by name to someone else when someone else doesn't know them personally. I don't know why, its a weird brain thing for me, like I don't have permission to use their real name (or even handle) somehow lol.

I usually name all my characters in video games Kara (not my real name, in case you are worried), you could try that if it's easier to say, but its nbd. I don't even know why I picked this name lol, it's a self-deprecating joke about how I mispronounce words... my real name is super common anyway, so it'd probably be nbd, but in the spirit of opsec this is probably better.

I guess people may not like This Is How You Lose The Time War for its fucky chronology and avant-garde tone.

As agents Red and Blue travel back and forth through time, altering the history of multiple universes on behalf of their warring empires, they leave each other secret messages—at first taunting, but gradually developing into flirtation then love. When Red's commanding officer detects the interaction between Red and Blue, she forces Red to send Blue a message that will kill Blue when it is read—even though she is warned of the danger, Blue reads the message anyway.

haha, nice try, this sounds fucking sick actually and i'm going to read it. we'll see if i can handle the fucky chronology though, sometimes I do struggle with that.

Lol same, cool that Safe Partner plays music too though, you both have so many skills and hobbies waowee...

i cycle through things, or go through seasons being into something. it sounds better than it is i think.

We are gonna POST when the thread rolls over!!!!

hmm idk not sure, write words to people on the internet? lea-think couldn't be me ... wouldn't have been a week ago... :::

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

FRICK

obv don't adopt wild rats,

Oh no ofc, I just appreciate all rodents and other similar Lil Guys. I mean what are cats if not oversized rodents?

i usually fillibuster my parents about communism, i'm an only child, what are they gonna do? talk to their dog?

waow-based Also Idk, if the soviet gubmint was oppressing the church, good, lmao. Also I'm glad to hear you've made tiny bits of progress with your parents, by like cutting them off for a decade, classic strat I use it myself.

i struggle with trying to maintain cisheteroneuronormativity

I do not do this :3 I am the weird autist everywhere I go. Although I do engage in the "mask and just talk about safe topics" because am I gonna explain Unjust Depths or even Wayhaven to my 60something year old dad??? I did make him really mad by saying that the existence of Russia as it stands is entirely the west's fault, lmao.

It avoids a lot of anime tropes, but ... shit, ok, here we go...

Yeah sounds breddy gud honestly =)

uhh I still call you Tactics Ogre Enjoyer to Safe Partner,

This makes me snort, and Tactics Ogre Enjoyer's Wife? I said to wifey that of all possible things to be identified by, that's a pretty good one, lmao. You can feel free to use Ash or Ashina for me though, less of a mouthful lol. I will attempt to affect "Kara" though, saw on your Wayhaven save!! Very cool!!

lol, it's a self-deprecating joke about how I mispronounce words...

HEY FUCK YOU, maddened My wife and I went back and forth for ages about its pronounciation and still stumble over it often!!! Grrrrrrrr joke too good!!

haha, nice try, this sounds fucking sick actually and i'm going to read it

Alright well good luck ✨ it's a little aloof for some people but it is popular Idk.

i cycle through things, or go through seasons being into something.

waow-based Hyperfixations.... cycling special interests...

wouldn't have been a week ago

Lfg online messages gang!!!!

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

it happened againok i'm at work, i'm working, need to work the working, so this post will be short (she is lying)

Oh no ofc, I just appreciate all rodents and other similar Lil Guys. I mean what are cats if not oversized rodents?

damn totally, i love animals, allergic to cats tho :(

if the soviet gubmint was oppressing the church, good, lmao.

i uh don't use this language in front of them, but I have been to Russian churches, and seem what that kind of belief system provides. I ... secretly ... agree, completely. It fucked me up, I'm thirty-X years and still struggle with things from it.

by like cutting them off for a decade, classic strat I use it myself.

haha many such cases

I do not do this :3 I am the weird autist everywhere I go.

this is why I like you & magi, I love this. I'm sick of hiding, it's so much effort. And if I have to hide, I want to minimize the amount of time I'm doing it. I was masking 24/7, even from Safe Partner, before I discovered what it was. I'm finding myself unable to mask in some situations, now that I know what it is (and I'm also finding that I was not masking already in a lot of ways) - I have a problem presenting anything but authentically. I can't lie or even lie by omission (as I'm sure you've noticed, I give big answers to small questions because, in part, I want no room for misunderstandings).

Although I do engage in the "mask and just talk about safe topics" because am I gonna explain Unjust Depths or even Wayhaven to my 60something year old dad???

tru, I have not mentioned Wayhaven, but I would probably talk to him about Unjust Depths (once I read it) just to confuse him or to rant about communism lol. They like hearing about communism from me, he feels very seen when I start talking about it, my mom too I think. He usually likes it when I rant for an hour or two, but sometimes I feel like I should at least attempt to talk about things he might be interested in.

I did make him really mad by saying that the existence of Russia as it stands is entirely the west's fault, lmao.

based, let's hope it's the kind of mad that turns into eventual agreement.

Yeah sounds breddy gud honestly =)

thank you for reading!! i never know how long anything I write will be, it can be tough to figure out how much I have to say until I'm actually saying it, and I try not to give only partial thoughts. Every serious post is all in for me, unless I am tired or distracted.

This makes me snort, and Tactics Ogre Enjoyer's Wife? I said to wifey that of all possible things to be identified by, that's a pretty good one, lmao.

I call magi Goth Wife, actually (I hope that's ok!!!). I'm glad to hear you talk about me, I thought I was being weird doing the same with Safe Partner. At least knowing it's mutual helps haha. I've called you Tactics Ogre Enjoyer since I saw you posting about Tactics Ogre, before we started really talking and while I was still too scared to post. I will try to update my mental model haha, but it may take a while. (also, how to pronounce magi? "maj-eye"? "mah-jee"?)

(this is extremely weird sorry...) I struggle to try to explain the nickname thing, I do it for some people. There's something weirdly intimate about me in particular referring to a person by a name that could be given to an actual human, it's like saying they're a close friend, or that I would be sad if they stopped talking to me or disappeared. (100% not an issue on the receiving end, dw). Maybe it's that I get a lot of emotions about people easily, and this lets me kind of keep a polite distance to protect myself. That's the best interpretation I have right now, maybe hold off reading too much into it as I'm not totally confident this is 100% me fr fr yet. I use nicknames for fun, too, they're usually fun to say, and it's 100% used as a term of endearment.

Of course, I figure I'm the only one that thinks this way, since it's really really weird lol.

I will attempt to affect "Kara" though, saw on your Wayhaven save!! Very cool!!

oh shit, actually, was the last name on there?

My wife and I went back and forth for ages about its pronounciation and still stumble over it often!!! Grrrrrrrr joke too good!!

it's a unique vocal thing I do, I mix up phenomes in words, sometimes I swap back and forth between correct and not. Words like stragedy, stanima, etc. I didn't notice until people pointed it out, but I kinda refuse to change it. It's how I talk, people should deal with it, and I refuse to change it because I think it's cute and I already spend a lot of energy talking as is without worrying about it. soviet-huff if anyone I knew IRL read this post they'd probably know my online handle from this lol, show yourselves cowards

edit: struggling with pronouns sorry!

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Okay well I'm blowing up your inbox but don't fuss, just prioritise what you need

allergic to cats tho :(

yea I am too but I have a cat anyway tbh

I ... secretly ... agree, completely. It fucked me up, I'm thirty-X years and still struggle with things from it.

rat-salute-2 I hope you can win the struggle. Also welcome to the resistance, if you want to join the cultural revolution on kkkhristianity, there will always be a place for you ❤

this is why I like you & magi, I love this. I'm sick of hiding,

waow-based Genuinely flattered at this, thank you lol. I mean safety is a factor but not-masking is a good thing, although I do find it kinda funny that you just can't now, honestly. Also re: leaving long replies to minimise misunderstanding, waow relatable.

but I would probably talk to him about Unjust Depths (once I read it) just to confuse him or to rant about communism lol.

My dad is one of those USamerican guys (he is KKKanadian but lol) who grew up in the 60s and drank the CIA koolaid, he earnestly still lives in a red scare and thinks Vladimir Putin is an ebil gommunist dictator who is gonna take over yurop. I am pretty sure he would unironically kill me if I said "there is a specter haunting all of europe" lmao. I wish my parents were open to communism rambles like yours... I might make progress with dad but it's like arguing against the state department lol.

Every serious post is all in for me,

lets-fucking-go

I call her Goth Wife, actually (I hope that's ok!!!).

I told her and she laughed, I think that's breddy gud. Her username is pronounced "māge-eye" like the Zelda magi, I guess. Also waow you read the Ogrepost ✨ I talk with wifey about bearsite goings-on very frequently, honestly. It's big social.

(this is extremely weird sorry...)

Nah you're fine dw, it's about familiarity, I see. Makes perfect sense to me, although I can admit I don't put as much weight on nicknames.

oh shit, actually, was the last name on there?

Not to my memory?

I mix up phenomes in words, sometimes I swap back and forth between correct and not. Words like stragedy, stanima, etc. I didn't notice until people pointed it out, but I kinda refuse to change it.

MAKING PEOPLE DEAL WITH YOUR AUTISM HABITS lets-fucking-go This is extremely based, I love to see it.

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

i actually get excited when people i feel safe around blow up my inbox

I am too but I have a cat anyway tbh

damn that's based, wish i had cat. love visiting cats, they're just like me fr fr

Also welcome to the resistance, if you want to join the cultural revolution on kkkhristianity, there will always be a place for you ❤

fuck yes

although I do find it kinda funny that you just can't now, honestly.

it's funny, and kind of a relief lol. luckily there have been very few consequences, and I try to keep a lot of it under wraps still, but if I get deep into a conversation with someone or something unexpected happens in a social situation whoops there it goes.

...I might make progress with dad but it's like arguing against the state department lol.

oh no, that really sucks, frick why do people not think past propaganda? is it material interests? it's probably material interests, isn't it... i have and had very mixed feelings about the idea of family in general, preferring the idea of "found family" to blood family. my family is very large and very shitty, so I cut most of them off entirely with no desire to reconnect, despite their advances and reassurances from my mom that "they're okay with how you are, as Kara, they use your name..." like, what do i have to gain from talking to the Christian cishet nutjobs? I'm not planning on having kids and that's all they care about.

Her username is pronounced "māge-eye" like the Zelda magi, I guess.

noted!

Also waow you read the Ogrepost ✨

i did, back when it was posted, but haven't gone back yet haha. Partner read it last week because I insisted lol

I talk with wifey about bearsite goings-on very frequently, honestly. It's big social.

ya same

Nah you're fine dw, it's about familiarity, I see. Makes perfect sense to me, although I can admit I don't put as much weight on nicknames.

yeah, i'm not sure I have it figured out. surprised by my own emotions again...

Not to my memory?

I went back and found it, and removed the image from the post. It was one of the suggested last names in the game, but still uhhh yeah shit I shouldn't say more.

MAKING PEOPLE DEAL WITH YOUR AUTISM HABITS

lol. i mean, it's never malicious, but people usually think it's cute, so...

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

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love visiting cats, they're just like me fr fr

yea They truly are just like me fr fr

it's funny, and kind of a relief lol.

Good!! I worry sometimes because I don't wanna be saying JUST YAP AUTISTICALLY IRL if it could put people in danger, so I'm happy to hear you had a good experience with it, mostly.

frick why do people not think past propaganda? is it material interests? it's probably material interests, isn't it...

Idk, my dad just took it at face value and thinks commies are bad and killed billions. It's very fucking silly. He knows the governments in imperial core nations are bullshitters and yet... this.

preferring the idea of "found family" to blood family. my family is very large and very shitty, so I cut most of them off entirely

Absolutely based, and yeah fuck these people. I can only imagine that even "accepting" cishet christian nutjobs would have freakish thoughts about trans people and having kids.

Partner read it last week because I insisted lol

Okay this fucked me up, lmao. People are passing my thing around to others waow...

surprised by my own emotions again...

This happens to me a lot, if I haven't felt something before I feel it BIIIIIG

and removed the image from the post

Oh yeah okay, soz. I was pretty sure it was a suggested name, yeah.

t's never malicious, but people usually think it's cute, so...

I can admit some autism habits are cute tbqh..................

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

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Good!! I worry sometimes because I don't wanna be saying JUST YAP AUTISTICALLY IRL if it could put people in danger, so I'm happy to hear you had a good experience with it, mostly.

generally, programmers are pretty ND or have some ND traits, so it helps me blend in. and i don't get out much, lol.

Idk, my dad just took it at face value and thinks commies are bad and killed billions. It's very fucking silly. He knows the governments in imperial core nations are bullshitters and yet... this.

oh, yeah, the both sides... good luck :/ but I do want to say my parents went through that. my dad was a Musk lover for a bit, he'd agree with all the things i'd tell him, and then also repeat liberal talking points. still sometimes he whines about "this thing is garbage because it was MADE IN CHINA." I calmly explain every time, and eventually he starts correcting himself... eventually...

Absolutely based, and yeah fuck these people. I can only imagine that even "accepting" cishet christian nutjobs would have freakish thoughts about trans people and having kids.

actually, I have a lot of thoughts about found family based on our earlier conversations, I'll post about it sometime soon, maybe tonight or something.

Okay this fucked me up, lmao. People are passing my thing around to others waow...

in a good way?

This happens to me a lot, if I haven't felt something before I feel it BIIIIIG

helps to know i'm not alone, lol

I can admit some autism habits are cute tbqh..................

yes absolutely. i love hearing/reading infodumps usually, this is something i find cute and awesome about autistic people - they way they can write a thousand words about a short story and make me feel it too. that ruled, btw.

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

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so it helps me blend in. and i don't get out much, lol.

Based and based, I wish my autism helped me blend in, but I also don't get out much soooo...

"this thing is garbage because it was MADE IN CHINA."

My dad does this and it's very funny. He thinks china bad which is y'know, blegh.

actually, I have a lot of thoughts about found family based on our earlier conversations,

Aw fuck yeah looking for gorup, looking for grooooup!!!!!! New post!!!!!

in a good way?

Yeah in a good way =) that's one of my proudest posts so y'know.

helps to know i'm not alone, lol

It's an emotional regulation thing, I have to know a feeling so I can put internal strategies in place to be regulated about it.

this is something i find cute and awesome about autistic people - they way they can write a thousand words about a short story and make me feel it too. that ruled, btw.

crush Naw it was just a dorky post cmon.... I mean I agree but not about my stuff yaknow...

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (1 children)

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My dad does this and it's very funny. He thinks china bad which is y'know, blegh.

i just remind him all the good things that he thinks arent made in China are actually made in China

Aw fuck yeah looking for gorup, looking for grooooup!!!!!! New post!!!!!

As soon as I saw you doing this in my inbox I immediately had to tell Partner excitedly, lmao.

It's an emotional regulation thing, I have to know a feeling so I can put internal strategies in place to be regulated about it.

Oh! This makes sense. Yeah, I've been feeling a lot of new feelings lately. Not really sure about any of it, lol, but I think that I probably do this too. It's been a strange couple of months in general, since I started seeing Cool Therapist. I went from just thinking I wanted to go back on ADHD medication and feeling like I had too many hobbies and being sad about that to being like "I want my full time job to be posting on bear site. Someone pay me." and "also, autistic btw." I've read so many books, listened to so many different autistic people on YouTube, made an effort post in one of these threads a while back about it too for someone...

Then I read the Gender Accelerator. And now I'm reading Orange Book (slowly lol, the bear site is very good and fun actually) and giving work the respect it deserves (lol).

Naw it was just a dorky post cmon.... I mean I agree but not about my stuff yaknow...

no exceptions, sorry you'll just have to accept this, your posts are good actually

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

::: spoiler spoiler

all the good things that he thinks arent made in China are actually made in China

some-controversy

As soon as I saw you doing this in my inbox

anya-heh kinda funny bit tbh

Yeah, I've been feeling a lot of new feelings lately.

That sounds like a lot of really good turnaround since you've been seeing Cool Therapist, then, which sounds rad as fuck. And then gender theory! Also waow I sure wish my fulltime job was posting...

you'll just have to accept this, your posts are good actually

not-built-for-this

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

spoiler

That sounds like a lot of really good turnaround since you've been seeing Cool Therapist, then, which sounds rad as fuck. And then gender theory! Also waow I sure wish my fulltime job was posting...

totally, i'm happy about it. i'm trying to work on this fond family post, but realizing that ... i don't actually have any answers for any of it. i just kinda started writing and then ran into a wall, lol

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I believe in you though :3 glad you are happy abt it.

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

cat-trans

(oh, it finally happened, didn't it)

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)
[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 month ago

(i am not sure honestly. i am trying to decide if i should change my profile picture or not ... i did not expect it to be this big of a decision)