Lavenderism

I did not intend to leave my body, but somehow I ended up in my living room without it. I looked out into the backyard, and I saw a bunch of bright colors that I could not see from my physical eyes, and flowers that have not grown yet. I also saw my cat, who reacted to me as if I was there physically. At first I thought I was in my house, but then I realized I forgot my body in my bedroom. I felt light, just like a consciousness floating around my house as I floated back to my room and went back into my body. It was awkward at first because I wondered if I would be able to get back inside, but eventually I felt myself returning. I was able to move my feet at first, but I was kind of paralyzed from the waist up since this was my first time projecting and I have no experience of doing so. I got up, and I felt as if I had gotten up too fast as I was rushing to get my cat some food since she was meowing for me and trying to wake me up by walking on the bed. I felt dizzy after that, but it wasn’t too bad I just had to walk a bit slower.

I get paranoid when I am outside of my body, because I get the impression that if I leave it behind it will get stolen. Maybe this comes from being materialistic or viewing my body as something I own (quite literally). I know it’s unlikely something would steal a physical body but it felt like leaving a gold bar in the car just like an open opportunity for thieves.

However, just the experience of astral projection helps anyone put their lives into perspective. Not identifying with your human opens up a lot of possible paths you have and lets you look at your skill sets from a higher perspective and allows you to break the illusions of the problems you have in the current lifetime. It also really helps to divorce your consciousness from your mind since always being so immersed in your mind can make it difficult to separate these. Especially for those who are neurodivergent and are always thinking, separation makes it more clear they are different. As you do this more and more, you can go farther and the transition back into your body becomes easier each time. Don’t do anything crazy in the beginning like going around the world or going to the spirit world, but you can build up your astral projection skills to eventually get to that point.

In modern times, you can go on Youtube and find so many tutorials on how to be masculine, how to be confident, how to act manly etc. However, these videos are fundamentally flawed in their concept, because they are not working on the basis of all masculinity which is testosterone. Testosterone is the basis of all those actions you consider masculine, for obvious reasons. However, modern societies have manipulated their ideas about how men should act to suit various economic and political needs. The illusion of independence (Despite relying still on a larger society) can punish those who cannot provide for themselves and reinforce the concept of social darwinism. Outside of primitive actions like hunting, reproducing, or fighting there is not very much that we are innately programmed to do that is not somehow conditioned or decided by society.

Masculine energy is compared as more logical and structured than feminine energy, but this seems to come from modern capitalism. Masculine energy manifests in this society as providing for yourself or for a family. Being grounded, analytical, focused, and passionate are good examples of masculine energy as well. It is also carnal and physical compared to feminine energy which is emotional and sentimental. Modern people view them as conflicting, but both are required to have a healthy balance regardless of gender expression or identity.

Another thing to remember as well is that at the end of the day, our gender is determined by genitals and hormones at birth, assuming you are not trans or non-binary. It boils down to sex and temperament towards your desired gender. As an extension of this, it also affects the role you play in your family once you have children. Masculine energy comes from this, and anything we add on to it is just a social construct. Additionally, trying to block people from accessing things that relate to arousal or trying to stop people from having sex or romance is blocking them from masculine and feminine energy since testosterone and other hormones are produced during sex and romance.

The Spider of Locks is the goddess we associate today with shoplifting, assassins, crimes, and other things that you generally would want to get away with. Those who are attracted to her are usually untrustworthy, but there was once a time where paradoxically, followers of the goddess who were virtuous and honest actually frustrated her by making it difficult for her to fulfill her purpose.

The Spider Goddess attracted a small following during the times of mystery cults, and this caused her to become revered as a goddess of thieves. However, this religious veneration towards her caused her to be unable to steal things or sneak around, as her followers wished to follow her wherever she went and always shouted for her to ask for blessings or grant her offerings. She soon became frustrated with those faithful to her and asked them to leave her alone, but more would always come to her secret temple where she hid other fugitives.

One day, the group attracted so much attention that their temple was found, which caused an outrage from The Spider of Locks. “You have turned my den of thieves into a place of worship, and for that you are to leave and never return!” she said to them, as she commanded them to immediately leave unless they wished to sneak around and steal. Only one third of her followers remained, but those who stayed were those she could help, which were assassins, thieves, and generally shifty and cunning people.

Before Temujiin conquered so much of the world and his traces gave birth to a new god from his energies, the god of war was an older and more cruel deity that was once a king in pre-colonial Mexico. He had done something during his time alive that allowed him to challenge whatever god of war existed before and take his place. He brought along to hell all those who had committed suicide after his death to be with him in the afterlife, and he ruled over a large pyramid in the underworld that he treated just the one he had on Earth.

Eventually, the god of war became bored with his existence. He was not making anything happen because he did not see godhood as anything besides an easy immortal life. He became bored with what he had and eventually when Tayang was formed as the spirit of a tiger in Hell, he saw that he could easily defeat this man and take the title of the god of war from him. He challenged him to a duel and before anyone could think, his sword had slain the god. Tayang immediately rose to become the new god, and those who followed the old god that had died immediately had their bodies decompose leaving them as nothing but painted skeletons. They were expelled by Tahyang from the Steppes of Elysium and ended up wandering various parts of the underworld. The slain god is said to have survived in some way and his old followers continually attempt to revive him.

When I talk about cultural appropriation, I’m not including petty little things like you hear people saying on social media just to start arguments because I am not here for that. Those conversations are for liberals to feel morally superior to whoever else. I will pick up my stuff and leave a conversation like that. I am also not talking about cultural appropriation in the context of exploiting people’s culture for money or other reasons because that is outside the intentions of this newsletter. To clarify, I am talking about the desire some people have to emulate other groups of people or nationalities. This happens a lot in the New Age community for reasons I will get into.

When you see someone doing this or if you find yourself doing this, you should probably think about what characteristics specifically you or that person see in the other culture that you want to emulate. If a person is doing noble savage and saying things like “They are happy with so little.” That's obviously problematic, but this is a hint that they subconsciously realize that their life is complex and materialistic, and desire something they perceive as more meaningful. When you see a person such as a New Age practitioner wanting to emulate India/Nepal or some other nation, it is most likely because they realize their society is devoid of spirituality and want to emulate the ways of those other nations, which leads to romanticizing and appropriating of traditions that become divorced from their context. Some people feel offended when their faith is deconstructed this way as well. At the bottom of trying to emulate these foreign cultures, there is always a question of why you want to emulate that foreign society. There is a huge elephant in the room sometimes as well, seeing as how India uses a caste system while South Korea and Japan are dystopian societies where people are worked to death. These places that people love to appropriate are not usually the freest places in the world or even the most well off. Whatever aesthetics you see need to come with a healthy dose of reality.

The reason for the desire can be a lot of things. Maybe you like traditions you see and wish you had your own. Maybe you like the lifestyle of a place or you resonate with attitudes you perceive people of a foreign place of having. Another thing that happens is that with foreign dramas and television, people develop a desire to insert themselves into Korean dramas or Anime which leads to people who want to be Japanese or Korean. They are quite literally trying to insert themselves into a foreign culture or even genre of media. You may even see modern teenage girls trying desperately to be Korean. This is usually accompanied by desiring scenarios similar to what are depicted in the media.

You should reflect with them and ask them why they have an affinity for emulating foreign cultures and what they expect to be different if they adopt those ways. Once you get it out of the way and realize what characteristics you actually like from your perception of a culture, you can work on emulating it yourself in your own appropriate way. In severe cases such as that of Rachel Dolezal, you may even have a dissociative disorder where past trauma is causing you to feel dysphoria or discomfort over your own identity.

The opposite for non-white people may also be true if they consume media and culture from the west which makes them see the western world through the idealized world of fiction, and this can lead to a desire to be western. The dynamics are a lot different when a person from a non-dominant culture wants to emulate the dominant one. In this case, a person from the third world may use western media as a form of escapism and perceive they can have a similar life to those displayed in media, even if the reality of the bourgeois economy, white supremacy and western imperialism will always stain whatever life they choose to have here. Western media towards the lumpenproletariat of the third world is almost like a form of brainwashing to make people think American life is superior.

Today is an extremely reactionary holiday. You probably will not even be listening to the radio without hearing some off the wall propaganda about the US being the best country or some other nonsense. Besides American flags everywhere you look, and not a single one is on fire. It is a good day for isolation and meditation to avoid the insane amount of propaganda that is going on outside.

It is very difficult to talk about the people you will see if you need to go out today for groceries or work, but know that many cult recruiters and political extremists have a license to fly their flag today without repercussions. Whether it makes you offended or alienated, today is not a day to leave home at all if you can avoid it.

It is safe to spend the day binging Netflix, on the computer, or even meditating. This is not a day to celebrate anything as far as I know, but there are a lot of other things you can do.

Because the flag of our people is a single color, you will probably find it somewhat pricey to go and purchase a custom flag just to get the right shade of purple. In fact, it may even be better to DIY your own flag with any flag and a coat of paint since that makes it more personal and stops the consumerization and appropriation of that flag and the ideas it represents.

While officially the flag is Lavender, a shade of purple that is too bright makes it appear white. It is recommended to actually use a darker purple than how you want it to appear in reality. Darker purples may not be exactly Lavender, but it’s functionally the same flag. Nobody else is using a purple flag as far as I know so the shade does not really matter.

If you live in America, the national flags sold in stores are definitely not suitable for hanging up in the state you buy them in. It is a ritual to take a flag of your country and paint it over with Lavender. Making a flag like this is symbolic of being free from the nation you were born in and being able to choose the spirit world instead.

If we think of the physical world as a kind of simulation that we all chose to come into despite being immortal spirits and/or deities, then being an upper level avatar is almost like being an administrator or developer in this system. An upper level avatar is someone who comes here to manage the physical world or to create things for people to do. In recent times, you may have noticed lagging in the matrix. Some say you may be dissociating in large crowds or places where there are a lot of people gathering, but if you are an enlightened being and only feel that way in crowds, you’re probably just seeing lag in the matrix. Other issues like perpetual boredom or not having any role to fill in the world is a result of the population increase which causes everything to become overloaded. This is made even worse by class enemies coming here and worsening material conditions which makes us less likely to find employment or a place to belong in the current lifetime.

Being an upper level avatar is not easy and you most likely have various constraints and restrictions put on your lifetime so you do not go and dominate the world with your abilities. Being a moderator in the physical reality is not like having cheat codes. Instead, you find yourself in boring lifetimes since you are supposed to be the one that makes things happen. Some upper level avatars become religious figures but do not go seeking wealth or comfort since they understand deep down that the wealth of the physical reality is not the basis of reality, but that comes with a high degree of discomfort. You would suspect ULAs would be more skilled at life than others, but the skills we have are within our physical vessels we have in the current lifetime and there are blockages in all of our minds that stop us from accessing the state of immortal deities that we are. What they end up doing instead is giving out a lot of spiritual knowledge and doing their best to help humanity make the right decisions down here in the physical world.

The signs of being a ULA are: People perceive you unable to take anything seriously You are uninterested in what the majority of people are doing You have an interest in larger ideas than other people such as philosophy or theory You seem to possess a higher than average capacity for supernatural abilities You have survived unscathed in experiences others would not have survived (Because you can’t die before another ULA comes to replace you) Preoccupation with spirituality or supernatural abilities Ability to sense energies to some degree Affinity towards the third eye and knowing immediately when something is a lie. Advanced and unusual knowledge of supernatural abilities, spiritual systems, and theological concepts not explained by discovering it previously. Understanding of artificial intelligence and a lack of interest in the physical world

Constraints ULAs may have in the current lifetime: You have been diagnosed with a condition that may be considered a disability You were born into a dysfunctional, poor household, or were orphaned You have trouble finishing higher education You experience trauma early in life Being born into a region with little opportunities poor social skills, unflattering appearance, or people randomly disliking you Bodily reactions to sugar or food that cause unpleasant effects

The constraints ULAs feel are not to punish them, but rather to prevent ULAs from dominating reality in any category. They can be worked around, but require sacrifice in some other part of life to surpass. ULAs are not supposed to come here to become the next Elon Musk and enslave humanity, as this would be heinous and it would damage the experience of the universe for all living organisms. Anything done by ULAs should fit with their goal of helping humanity.

Goldfish are good feng shui because they have gold in the name. Koi fish are also very lucky and bring romance because Koi means romance in Japanese. These fish are very good energetically to have around your house or place of work. In large lakes they grow to the size of a football, and catching a fish this large is a good omen.

You don’t need a huge goldfish for their energy though. Keeping a small one in your home is a good way to allow energy flow while not being too large of a commitment. You should change out the water since that keeps the fish healthy, but they can live a long time even if you don’t do that. Please make sure your fish are living well and don’t forget about them. You also do not want to flush them or throw them in lakes when you can no longer care for them, because they are invasive and can hurt the water quality by eating all the aquatic plants.

Other fish are also great to have because they have water energy, but if you have cats it may be easier just to stick with them as opposed to having both fish and a cat. A fish in your home does not seem like a lot, but on the spiritual level it’s the equivalent of having someone else in the house since fish have their own presence. Their energy will help you out a lot even if you don’t notice. Even just a picture of fish, artwork, or a feng shui statue of a fish can do a lot.

The Spider Queen of The Void is the ruler of the void of existence where nothing yet exists. She created Theocra in a moment of curiosity of what would happen if light would ever fill the empty void she inhabited, but to her surprise it took on life and this began the existence of all other things.

The Spider Queen of the Void is above death, and all cultural manifestations of death must answer to her. Her power is the reason for spiders existing in many different parallel realities. In some worlds, spiders are insects like in ours. In others, the spiders are a humanoid intelligent species like the spider spirits of hell. In others they are even aquatic or flying animals.

Because she is the oldest deity in existence and the ruler of the empty infinite void, she is too far away and distant for us to interact with. Interaction with her is only possible through intermediary spirits and gods. She is distantly related to the spider of locks and those who have adopted the spider persona.

It is very difficult to find information on those who successfully managed to escape the regime. Not only because of the regime censoring this info and making it seem inconceivable to those who live here, but also the international community trying to keep it a secret so as to not attract more defectors and potentially hurt diplomatic relations with the regime. From research, the official legal definition of a refugee is someone who is persecuted for protected status such as their religion, ethnicity, political beliefs, or membership of any social group. Propaganda creates the impression that this can’t happen here but in theory, your personal case could meet the criteria for approval this way.

Most people think of going to Cuba. That is a good option however official statistics are not included for those who run away to the free territory of Cuba. From official statistics, the first best location to flee the regime is Russia. They have so far accepted 100% of applicants from The United States. The second option is Costa Rica. They have a 100% acceptance rate as well though they have less. (11 in Russia vs. 5) The third best option to flee the country is Mexico, with a 70.6% rate of acceptance for refugees from America. 4th place is The United Kingdom at a 33.3% rate of acceptance. This is statistically unusual as many countries in Europe seem to have an acceptance rate of 0, rejecting every single claim filed by refugees from America. 5th place is Spain, which took 14.3% of asylum seekers from this country. Canada took 2.7% although when it came to appeals of decisions made, that number rose to 7.5%. However, they rejected a large number of those who applied for asylum in their country.

If you go down the list, those six countries are the only ones that seem to have entertained refugee applications from the US so far. For others, the amount of applications from America is the same as the number of rejections. There may be some cases of persecutory delusions or people trying to get away from consequences of a crime, or even those who abuse the system to go sightseeing. We can’t ever know, but something tells me that directly asking embassies will never result in anything meaningful. I’ve participated in forums for those wanting to escape but many seemed to have misunderstood the refugee policy or the criteria they needed to fit in order to win political asylum. Regardless it cannot be doubted that there is a large amount of politics that will inevitably taint the human rights purpose of the refugee system. Many that flee this country and make it to foreign shores will be sent back into the hands of the CIA.

And before anyone goes there, I will say that there is not as much freedom to protest as the people think. Eventually the government will just kill you or arrest you for decades if you keep advocating for democracy in America. Despite the rhetoric you hear, the US is an extremely conservative and conformist society and having opinions on certain topics that differ from the state ideology immediately causes you to become alienated and probably viewed as a threat. The US is a country where people say “You live under freedom, and you’re going to love it!” The irony of this regime having an aesthetic of freedom and liberty is palpable. Those of you who manage to escape, please continue spreading the word of the atrocities that are being committed against us by the state!