We dated over the phone because we're from different continents both eating a favorite food of mine 😂 she told me I was way more confident than the usual shy guy I was so she got a bit shy. I could hear her telling her family to not interrupt her because she was on a date.

OP is into some necro fetish

I will tell you that at least initially you shouldn't be looking for a partner/SO. Just try finding someone (online or real life) regardless of gender to do some activity that you both enjoy together. Don't be a weirdo, creepy, edgy, simp, nice guy, that will help ya, but also look on how to have conversations, have some good sense of humour, and be an emotionally aware and empathetic person. Ask for and set expectations/boundaries. And try to enjoy what you're both doing. And remember, love is not enough.

virtmanager as frontend for qemu/kvm. I tried the commandline but it's too annoying

That's also true for friends or close enough acquaintances

I was just looking for a watch buddy online and then she began becaming intimate with me because she found me handsome 🤷‍♂️

I used to write Wikipedia articles and blog posts about music if that counts.

In high school a female classmate asked me: "Do you masturbate?", and I answered "I don't need to answer you that." Well, I was actually uncomfortable by the fact that most people my age likely did, but I actually did not because I found masturbating disgusting. I thought they would think I was too odd for not masturbating lol

No one's worth my wellbeing. My happiness comes first. Be self suficient for my own happiness. Nobody's special.

I think you're sabotaging yourself. Get an entry position in software engineering (not necessarily code, see management positions for example as well) since you can work in many different domains.

Didn't Russia say they would nuke Ukraine if they ever attack Russia?

Once my best friend (later she told she was into me) put me in her WhatsApp friends group, but I didn't know anyone other than her. It was the only group I was, so I would just read the messages and never say anything. I felt displaced.