Uggh, those standards are so bad. I hope you are somewhat comfortable with your current setup.

Started by going through the official system, went diy after they went from treating me bad to horrible. And it honestly gave me a lot of confidence to not feel like I depend on those assholes anymore, even if I go back later. It still broke me a bit that I no longer trust doctors.

Maybe you can get a new assessment with a different doctor, if you still want that?

If you can afford it, it sounds like going to a therapist to unravel your feelings and possible trauma could be worth it. A good one will not tell you if you are trans, just help you along the way. If you can't then some lgbt groups offer help to questioning people too.

You don't have to rush it just because the vial might expire. Do it on your own time, experiment with other things (thought experiments, clothes...) if jumping to hormones is too much. Remember that it's not a magic juice that instantly turns you girly, you can always stop if you feel weird on it.

Also, do you trust her this much? I'm a trans woman on DIY but I'm getting mine from a source I've seen other buy from and talk good about. You also need to spend some time researching doses and what blood tests to do first too.

I (mtf) bought a couple of summer dresses online which is a huge step because I haven't allowed myself this kind of femininity yet, and now that they arrived I feel awesome instead of shameful!

Now I just need to figure out if I actually like them and how well they fit, I'm kinda funny sized in a way most fem clothes are not intended...

Soon at 4 years of hrt and starting to feel a bit hopeless regarding how little it can change on my body.

But I got myself some cool clothes and I'm pretty proud that I've been able to start voice training again after COVID ruined all the progress I made last time!

Unexpected e pro: way more confident

Unexpected e con: I lost 1 cm of height! I can no longer stare you down from 200 cm and 199 is just not the same :(

People here are apparently either foss neckbeards or transfems/femboys, and they are all valid.

Trans dev here, I hear that hacker spaces aren't bad places to look. I wouldn't know though, too shy to actually show up -.-

What are the preferred alternatives?

Mine is probably matrix, mostly because I can use the same account everywhere, but it also feels like there's a lot of gotchas and all the phone apps are kinda meh each in their own unique way.

Username doesn't check out?

There were apparently some schools that had cat litter around because children can't go to toilets during school shooting lockdowns, which is terrible in its own way.

But you should probably touch it before all the dependencies are outdated. And before everyone who understands how to work with it has left. Especially if it happens to be core to the business.

:)