I understand that very well. I'm trans and have to worry about transphobic people all the time. We appreciate you avoiding transphobic people because you're less likely to become one if you don't hang out with one, but most of all because it basically deplatforms them in reality.
I also just wish I could stay inside and never go out there again. People are hard. And I'm worried about how I appear all the time. I never want strangers to know I'm trans so I avoid letting any of that show. So when they do realize that's always really awkward. But trans stuff aside, people are hard. Very hard. I'm now taking 6 psych pills a day. It helps but it's still not enough.
I just found out that my car insurance was cancelled due to a billing error and now I'm driving uninsured until next week... My anxiety has been through the roof for a week now because of this and so so many other things. I feel like my life is teetering on the edge right now. But honestly it's probably not that bad. What I really need is a med adjustment for anxiety... I am catastrophizing everything lately. I just need to get calm.