Have you read any books on polyamory or listened to podcasts about it?
I would recommend looking at the following:
Unicorns-r-us.com
The Multiamory podcast
Some book suggestions: Opening Up, More Than Two (there is massive controversy around one of the authors, but it's still a very solid book to most), or Love in Abundance
I will warn you that with what you just wrote, a lot of these may make you feel attacked. I hope you're able to look past that, absorb, relook at your post, and see if you still have those questions or if you have new ones now.
Have you read any books on polyamory or listened to podcasts about it?
I would recommend looking at the following: Unicorns-r-us.com The Multiamory podcast Some book suggestions: Opening Up, More Than Two (there is massive controversy around one of the authors, but it's still a very solid book to most), or Love in Abundance
I will warn you that with what you just wrote, a lot of these may make you feel attacked. I hope you're able to look past that, absorb, relook at your post, and see if you still have those questions or if you have new ones now.