I've been away, but I skim lemmy every now and then. I noticed the uptick in start trek shit posts. I actually really like them. I don't really watch the show, but my friends are fans so I get some of the jokes. I even went to a con with my brother in law for his birthday. Besides something about Picards flute I had no clue what was happening, but the excitement was infectious.
I've been on the fringe of a few communities for quite some time, so I know how it feels to be constantly looking for a place you fit in. I'm glad you found yours op. Not going to say the thing, but all the best.