Homosexual Desire in Revolutionary Russia

Well... if I were to ever do one of those "self publish e-book slop on Amazon" things... I've got a title for the series.

I just scheduled my first hair appointment under my girl name and she/her pronouns.

I've always hated getting my haircut, so I'm more than a little anxious about going. The salon is queer friendly, but it still took like an hour to work up the courage to schedule it. They even ask for pronouns in the booking interface.

car is fixed for reals this time

My cat is being chaotic again, running around, trying to stop me from getting work done. She's restless, but she finally settled down and is watching me type this. Unfortunately for her, I have to get up now. Sorry, Lenore

You know, actually, I think it's more like a gender roguelike

Thinking about how Dr K said people are more attracted to each other if they experience emotions together and analyzing my whole life through the lens of empathy. How I rarely am affected the same way by common situations and don’t have common feelings rub off on me. How I don’t know how to show other people how I’m feeling in a recognizable way if I am under the impression there is a common feeling. Basically explaining why being terminally online is easy and socializing in real life is not.

I don't know if I'm gullible or naive, is it childlike wonder/innocence or I'm just dumb I'm middle aged (32) if that helps.

think I've found baseline, maybe

Think I wanna be Snufkin for Halloween, but, like, slutty

My boss came back from a somatic experiencing thing and I feel like it gave her some kind of soul vision. she reads me so easy...

"It seems like there's something in you that you just need to shed..."

I wonder if she can tell and is just trying to prod me along. It feels weird to have such positive feelings for her because of the power dynamic and yet here I am

fourth lasering done, the doc continues to be surprised by my lack of reaction to pain, little does he know that my spine is tingling the entire time

anyway, the state will sponsor one more go and then I'll have to pay myself...and uhh, i checked the prices lmao no dice with my current monetary situation. Goddamn but i just adore this bullshit system we live under

I once again posted before journaling. Sorry for venting 😅

Just got my new blow-dryer with a diffuser for curly hair!

Let's see how it performs

I just had someone I normally respect tell me "I've only seen white people take your position" when I said that I wouldn't cast my vote for genocidal Democrats, were I an American. While they were also claiming that voting for Harris is critical to protecting the American trans community.

I can't even fathom a response to this.

Almost crying today realizing just how far I've already gone. Something happened two years ago that should have signaled me toward transitioning, but I got here eventually 🥹

Obligatory: Best decision of my life :niko-dance:

I've been playing so much violin I'm getting callouses on my finger tips, it's nice not to hurt as much (they still hurt) but they feel so weird

::: spoiler gucci gang but it's estrogen

estrogen, estrogen, estrogen, estrogen, estrogen, estrogen, estrogen

actually building a lego

I have a cute outfit I'm gonna wear tomorrow and I'm excited for that

Update on talking to agency muckymucks about my transphobic coworker: he said the Facebook posts were accidental, and that he just has the technology aptitude of a boomer, and the real issue was him friending a coworker and getting caught.

Of course, he's also very explicitly ignoring all the trans women he works with here, so now I'm gathering accounts to bring that up to management.

I hate bra shopping. I have been wearing the same bra for nearly 5 years. It is now too small because I switched to CPA (also it's old lol) and I am sore as hell and where I used to be ok wearing it all day now I need to get the silly thing off at 2pm. How do I even start shopping online? Last time I measured it was kind of all over the place since I didn't really have a round shape. I remember it being a fucking ordeal last time in a department store trying to find something that fit me. Since I just switched to CPA a month ago, is it better to wait until the pain settles before upgrading since I'm not sure how much development I have left in me?

Basically, how y'all measuring?

Uh oh it has only been 3 days since I was last high and I am craving weed again. I may have a problem here

down with cis