Does anyone else find life kind of bittersweet?

It finally fucking happened: a white hair in my brush 😖😭

First thing in the morning, show some trans comrade love.

I'm scared that I might not be cis and in denial. I tell myself it's just me feeling like I don't want to / can't live up to the standards of masculinity, that my genitals specifically don't give me dysphoria so I cant be trans , but maybe I'm just scared of adding more complications to my life of adding another form of discrimination I'll get to have , that I feel like I'll never find anyone and presenting myself another way will make it 100x harder . Why do I cry if I even begin to imagine myself looking feminine , I just want to close my eyes and have them not open.

I don't know why I hate that the dates in the title are written as fractions. It's fine, it's very clear that they're dates but I saw them and was instantly like

I don't understand why I have such strong feelings about such an extremely unimportant stylistic choice, but here we are!

DICTATORSHIP OF THE QUEER

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! People keep changing plans and its super overwhelming!!!!!!!! My fun family time has turned into me curling up and crying far away from everyone because the plans kept changing rapidly and everything was so confusing

Trying a new thing

↘️ Please help Aya in Gaza ❤️ 🇵🇸

https://gofund.me/1222af19

When I look at old pictures of myself I see a guy now, pretty cool stuff.

I’m definitely part of skirt gang now, ya’ll. Got so many compliments and some creepy old men staring at me, which i’ll still take as a win.

Will be seeing a cute guy I met recently again today, but I don't think he knows I'm trans, so it'll be the last time I see him. So yaa, quite sad about that🥲

Somewhat positively though, I think I've narrowed down my future career goals, and my HRT dose was increased.

Hoping comrades @ashinadash@hexbear.net and @magi@hexbear.net are doing okay.

Got some dark purple nail polish today, really looking forward to it. I've been wanting purple for a while now

Cleaned my earholes with hydrogen peroxide and now kirby 64 ost sounds even better

The purple is just as pretty as I hoped Its a little glittery too, feels amazing.

no clue what we're going to do with our hair still >~< so complicated

thinking about that home made pesto pasta I had the otther day again. damn that shit was so good. fresh basil just has such a smell and absolute powerful verdant look to it in pesto

Another pair of jeans down

Thighs too thick 😔✊️

not going out tonight, too busy singing a meatball marinara song to my dog

Did my nails and blindly mixed a black with an iridescent top coat called “unicorn.” Ended up with kind of acid green/night sky color. Quite delightful and unexpected.

One day I will upgrade from a "service dog in training" and become a "service dog"

Damn I should've started injections nine years ago lmfao (along with progesterone I'm seeing some decent breast growth)

Thank you for your call, we are experiencing higher than normal call volumes...

I don't think I've called a big company since like 2009 where they weren't experiencing "higher than normal call volumes." On the one hand, it makes sense that I'd be calling during their busy times I guess. But every time?

I actually scheduled a consult with a voice coach. It's been like, idk a year now and I have made no progress with my voice so hoping that a voice coach can help me. Only problem is that I'm not out at work so I will not be able to go full time with my voice :(

Put on my old grey sweatpants (only a few years old tbh) and

Can't really wear my old clothes anymore IG. estrogen is magic fr

sigh

if i want a GF i have to download shudders the apps, don't I?

yeah :(

I remember being pretty good at linear algebra once, calculus never really stuck though. I vaguely remember it all like a dream but maybe if I could get some materials I've no real use for it but prob beats being a gamer