I am not even diagnosed at the moment. And the whole process of getting diagnosed in my country is discouraging me. And somehow I fear that I would lose an portion of "me" if I would medicate now.

I grew up without a diagnose and some how habdlrd it and coped with it enough that it wasn't directly a problem. Until last year when I get to know somebody who is diagnosed who said to me I probably have it and I am still learning what it realy means, but it helps knowing now the words to describe how I always fellt.

Sorry I got lost, so maybe someday but unsure.

[–] woodcroft@lemmy.world 1 points 1 year ago

I just recently got on Adderall.

I have difficulties following conversations and staying focused and on task. I also get really frustrated at myself when I get distracted and lose focus - it makes me feel inadequate and I know that I am not.

I can empathize with your fear of losing yourself, however — I am glad I have been able to support the part of myself that would struggle to focus and quickly spiral.