So far I have managed to pull of the bed part, had to get halfway across the country to find a motel cheap enough I can basically live in, but its a mile away from a grocery store and even after now about 2 weeks of nothing but resting, my extremely sore and torn ligaments still are not great.

Basically at this point in my life (read through my comment history if you want some more details), I just want to be left alone to try to make my own video game. Just because I love video games amd coding... and as sad as this may sound I feel that is basically all I have left that would really give me any drive in life.

I have many other hobbies amd interests, and I am sure that I could eventually find new friends... but my family and nearly all my old friends are either delusional, manipulative or indifferent to what I have been going through.

I probably just need to rest more. I have been figuring out how to stay alive on my own for a bit more than a year now... and I do not think I can ever really trust anyone ever again, after how many people have taken advantage of me.