Kapag may art na hindi ko type or naintindihan iniisip ko na lang, 'Ok, I'm just not ready for this yet,' because it's not the right time or moment or maturity or intellectual level.

I go back to it a year or five years or longer and maybe, I know how to appreciate it by then. It always blows away my mind when this happens. What seemed like a simple thing suddenly has so many layers. So this was what the others saw or heard or understood that I couldn't. Amazing. I'm glad I get it now.

Does the same thought apply to people and relationships? Hmm, it seems to be much more difficult to go back to what was once there if you know, you really fuck it up. Plus you can't just go, Oh I don't understand you so balikan kita in one year lol. If you appreciate it too late, chances are you're already looking back with a tinge of regret or nostalgia.

I'll just go, I had a marvelous time ruining everything.