I'd like to know more about your financial quarantine if you don't mind. I've been in similar situations, if I catch your meaning. I'm sort of in a similar situation now, now that i think about it, as I live in a decently rural area, with no drivers license, or public transportation. /:

I'm excited about just about everything though. My life was utter shit till about a year ago. Lately I've been writing songs. It takes me about 4 months to finish and record one. I have 3 or 4 now! I've been in a situation where human contact was largely impossible up until recently. (I don't really have friends tbh. I am or have been a hermit ftmp. But I'm still figuring out who I am.)

[–] PlanetOfOrd@lemmy.world 12 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Yeah, just been looking for sustainable business opportunities for about the past 2-3 years. I think I might be able to leverage my network this week to give me a bit more breathing room. Most folks don't want to hire me because I come across as a freelancer since that's what I've had to do the past couple of years for survival.

I've been working on digging myself out of a "life hole." I was making strides during covid, but when everyone went back to "normal" I found I haven't been able to adjust to what 90% of people feel is normal. Contracts fell through, my network failed me, and I was left to fend for myself. Makes me feel left out and alone. I want to get married and live where I want. It's like everything says I should be able to, I believe in myself and my abilities, but the season I'm in now makes me feel stuck. Not only that, but it feels like all the progress I made during covid has been lost.

But I keep taking it one day at a time. Some days I feel like waking up is an accomplishment.

That is so awesome you're excited about your life, Middle. I hope it continues to head that way for you. Do you mind if I join you on the mountaintop soon? 😝

[–] MiddleWeigh@lemmy.world 7 points 1 year ago

Ofc! But be warned, there is no mountain top. The up and down motion is the best part ime.

I am also a freelancer of sorts. I am a tradesman and me and pops have a tiny little business that we started a few years ago.

I was addicted to drugs, and my dad lived in a jeep. Now were doing OK, looking out for one another, and others if we can. Anything past dead for me is icing!

During covid, I was in a very bad way. I couldn't even afford to go get vaccinated, In and out of court etc...but the PUA money allowed me to get bare necessity and my shit together more than I would have without it. So it was a blessing in disguise, as much as I hate to say it, but finding some good in even the worst of situations is all I know, out of necessity, I just look for it naturally, as a coping mechanism I guess. Sigh.

I think you are probably doing the best you can. I look forward to sharing the ride with you (;

[–] reflex@kbin.social 3 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I think I can empathize with some of what you're saying, so with all sincerity: keep up the good fight, bud.

[–] 31415926535@lemm.ee 5 points 1 year ago

I'm in the same boat, you're not alone. Well, you are, kind of, but a lot of us are alone, struggling, trying to make it work. One just has to keep trying, so good on you